Hey everyone,
I'm back for a slight update and another conversation-opener. I've been busy with work, hitting the gym and lots of studying. Meanwhile, I've also have been doing a lot of thinking and processing of thoughts.
As of late, I've been taking the steps to start anew -- with my personal life, somewhat my social life but most importantly my spiritual life. My main goal socially is to establish positivity with my current friends and establish new positive friendships as well.
As for my spiritual life, I'm finally at that state of mind where I can renew myself in the Lord. The past year alone has gotten me in a dark place and I'm glad I'm getting out of there and being able to see a little more clearly.
The toughest thing for me in the past four years is sticking to going to church. Why? I just find myself having trouble staying committed with group fellowship. I guess all the talk about a personal relationship with God one on one finally got to me. Thing is, you can't forsake the relationship with the Body because without them, you can find yourself a little crippled. As for why I went a solo route? I found myself lonely in church for the most part. I got disheartened in that 90% of the time, people seem to want me to go to church and see me there but beyond that, there's no befriending, no friendship, no interest in me as a person.
I feel that as a Body, we ought to get to know each other and draw close because I'm sorry, the thought of parts of the body being scattered instead of being one and being united and well in harmony turns me off. Jesus never considered his disciples just mere servants and followers but also friends. How do we know what the person sitting next to us is going through or even know how to help them if we don't take the time to know them as people, what their aspirations are and so forth? It's one of those things I have always questioned for years and felt like I've never gotten the answer for.
I should be resuming from writing soon. As soon as my Mac is back up, I'll be putting in all the writing I've done plus what's been saved and hopefully just a matter of editing and publishing.
Until then my friends,
Ronnie A Gonzalez
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4.28.2012
4.04.2012
Life, people, movies, music
Why hello there my dear friends! I know it has been a while but the brief dry spell is over! There's been quite a lot of things going on and would actually like to fill you all in on what's new.
I recently beat Batman: Arkham City for the first time. I can honestly say that it is the best Batman game ever made so far. The story and how they craftily put the different villains together in the story is ridiculous. Gotham City's been reduced into a dump known as Arkham City, where all the bad boys and girls go out for a nice gang war. Joker's dying, he manages to infect Batman with his blood and now Batman has to get the antidote made and done before he dies, along with the joker and anyone in the city's hospitals getting blood donations and transfusions. Meanwhile, Joker, Two-Face and Penguin's people are fighting in gang wars, trying to control Gotham, all this part of Hugo Strange's plot to rid of everyone, including Batman, the very man who brings criminals to justice. In the process you have Mr. Freeze with the antidote but is captive by Penguin. Along the way, Ra's al Ghul tries to get Batman to be his successor because God forbid he can find anyone else. I won't ruin the ending but I'll say this -- the game plays tight like a tiger, the drama and story is well executed and the ending will make your jaw hang.
I finally got my hands on Street Fighter X Tekken. If you are good at Street Fighter 4, then this game should be a no brainer. Everything looks and plays smoothly. The tag team system is done similar to Tekken Tag Tournament when it comes to health management and the tag moves are more varied and creative compared to Marvel vs. Capcom. Instead of two people jumping on and using their signature super moves, you have one guy initiating the tag attack with a slick strong combo build up and then ending with the partner executing their super move.
I got to re-watch Immortals in 2D and I confess that I wanted my 3D glasses. The movie, while epic and fun, through its structure, unveils to your mind that this movie was meant for 3D unlike movies like Underworld: Awakening (great movie but 3D was absolutely useless).
As far as my faith goes, it is thanks to good friends like Joseph, Larry, Jonathan Bream, Naila and Starsha that I've been gently grabbing onto my faith as time is going on. It's also playing a big role with dealing with my personal blues. My problem? I am very hesitant with associating with Pentecostals (at least the spanish Pentecostals anyway). Why? They just take things at an exaggerating point where things that don't matter matter too much, let alone the fact that 90% they play nice and try to be accepting and right when you feel like you belong, they try to make to change to be in the mold that they think is ideally whom they believe in their warped state of mind is how God wants you to be. I have a massive problem with that. I recall the bible showing me that it's God who is to be the one to guide, strengthen and mold the human into the best they are meant to be with their purpose in this world. The church? They're supposed to encourage and lead you into that direction, not brainwash you or make you into a slave of their idea of who God says you are. I think the bible, regardless of what version, is pretty clear on our purpose with God and eternity, so I deem it uncalled for that a particular part of the Pentecostal denomination stretch it to a wild degree. They treat church services like business meetings, play nice in the building but act like you're never friends outside of the church. The one thing I despised was the lack of establishment of friendships and relationships in church. Cmon, we're supposed to be a body, community and above all, a family.
My one longing in my walk is to simply follow God, learn to lead by example what it is to be consumed by His love and His true nature. Everything else is secondary or meaningless. We aren't meant to be cooped up in isolation and negativity. Jesus Christ, for God's sake, with all the negativity in the world and the seas of cynicism, do we really need more of that.? There's too much darkness and honestly, my one desire is for the church to shut up and be One light. I don't think a lot of my fellow Christians realize that the reason people hate us or carry a negative tone of us is due to our lacking of leading by example in character, attitude and love.
As far as my blues, it's become easier to contain. My visits to the therapist have helped put things out in the open the way I wanted best and speak out thoughts, frustrations and things I otherwise would've bottled up for a long time.
If there's one thing I learning to appreciate, it's having positive vibes. Misery loves company and when it gets company, what it does is establish a symbiotic relationship with a human soul -- all of which involves sucking the positive light out of someone to the point that they become numb, morbid and melancholy to a ridiculous degree at times. That is a very dangerous place to be, for it can bring about suicidal or homicidal tendencies, distance from friends and family that matter and before you know it, you'll be on a path of self-destruction.
I recall in Batman Forever, when Batman talks to Robin. Robin tells him that he's willing to take a life -- Two-Face's specifically. As Batman told him, "Then you take another and another until one day you wake up and revenge has become your life...and you'll be alone...like me". Point is, revenge, resentment and hatred are poisons to a human's soul, stripping them of any potential joy they can have with their life. Who in the right mind would ever enjoy being around misery? There's a reason it is said that you should surround yourself with positive-minded and happy people -- they help make misery less impossible to bear and makes misery easier to overcome day by day.
I end this blog with this -- if you ever felt like some of your prayers haven't been answered or aren't being answered, you're not alone -- because even Jesus has an unanswered prayer.
I recently beat Batman: Arkham City for the first time. I can honestly say that it is the best Batman game ever made so far. The story and how they craftily put the different villains together in the story is ridiculous. Gotham City's been reduced into a dump known as Arkham City, where all the bad boys and girls go out for a nice gang war. Joker's dying, he manages to infect Batman with his blood and now Batman has to get the antidote made and done before he dies, along with the joker and anyone in the city's hospitals getting blood donations and transfusions. Meanwhile, Joker, Two-Face and Penguin's people are fighting in gang wars, trying to control Gotham, all this part of Hugo Strange's plot to rid of everyone, including Batman, the very man who brings criminals to justice. In the process you have Mr. Freeze with the antidote but is captive by Penguin. Along the way, Ra's al Ghul tries to get Batman to be his successor because God forbid he can find anyone else. I won't ruin the ending but I'll say this -- the game plays tight like a tiger, the drama and story is well executed and the ending will make your jaw hang.
I finally got my hands on Street Fighter X Tekken. If you are good at Street Fighter 4, then this game should be a no brainer. Everything looks and plays smoothly. The tag team system is done similar to Tekken Tag Tournament when it comes to health management and the tag moves are more varied and creative compared to Marvel vs. Capcom. Instead of two people jumping on and using their signature super moves, you have one guy initiating the tag attack with a slick strong combo build up and then ending with the partner executing their super move.
I got to re-watch Immortals in 2D and I confess that I wanted my 3D glasses. The movie, while epic and fun, through its structure, unveils to your mind that this movie was meant for 3D unlike movies like Underworld: Awakening (great movie but 3D was absolutely useless).
As far as my faith goes, it is thanks to good friends like Joseph, Larry, Jonathan Bream, Naila and Starsha that I've been gently grabbing onto my faith as time is going on. It's also playing a big role with dealing with my personal blues. My problem? I am very hesitant with associating with Pentecostals (at least the spanish Pentecostals anyway). Why? They just take things at an exaggerating point where things that don't matter matter too much, let alone the fact that 90% they play nice and try to be accepting and right when you feel like you belong, they try to make to change to be in the mold that they think is ideally whom they believe in their warped state of mind is how God wants you to be. I have a massive problem with that. I recall the bible showing me that it's God who is to be the one to guide, strengthen and mold the human into the best they are meant to be with their purpose in this world. The church? They're supposed to encourage and lead you into that direction, not brainwash you or make you into a slave of their idea of who God says you are. I think the bible, regardless of what version, is pretty clear on our purpose with God and eternity, so I deem it uncalled for that a particular part of the Pentecostal denomination stretch it to a wild degree. They treat church services like business meetings, play nice in the building but act like you're never friends outside of the church. The one thing I despised was the lack of establishment of friendships and relationships in church. Cmon, we're supposed to be a body, community and above all, a family.
My one longing in my walk is to simply follow God, learn to lead by example what it is to be consumed by His love and His true nature. Everything else is secondary or meaningless. We aren't meant to be cooped up in isolation and negativity. Jesus Christ, for God's sake, with all the negativity in the world and the seas of cynicism, do we really need more of that.? There's too much darkness and honestly, my one desire is for the church to shut up and be One light. I don't think a lot of my fellow Christians realize that the reason people hate us or carry a negative tone of us is due to our lacking of leading by example in character, attitude and love.
As far as my blues, it's become easier to contain. My visits to the therapist have helped put things out in the open the way I wanted best and speak out thoughts, frustrations and things I otherwise would've bottled up for a long time.
If there's one thing I learning to appreciate, it's having positive vibes. Misery loves company and when it gets company, what it does is establish a symbiotic relationship with a human soul -- all of which involves sucking the positive light out of someone to the point that they become numb, morbid and melancholy to a ridiculous degree at times. That is a very dangerous place to be, for it can bring about suicidal or homicidal tendencies, distance from friends and family that matter and before you know it, you'll be on a path of self-destruction.
I recall in Batman Forever, when Batman talks to Robin. Robin tells him that he's willing to take a life -- Two-Face's specifically. As Batman told him, "Then you take another and another until one day you wake up and revenge has become your life...and you'll be alone...like me". Point is, revenge, resentment and hatred are poisons to a human's soul, stripping them of any potential joy they can have with their life. Who in the right mind would ever enjoy being around misery? There's a reason it is said that you should surround yourself with positive-minded and happy people -- they help make misery less impossible to bear and makes misery easier to overcome day by day.
I end this blog with this -- if you ever felt like some of your prayers haven't been answered or aren't being answered, you're not alone -- because even Jesus has an unanswered prayer.
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